Month: March 2011

broken heart

It’s Always the Ones You Least Expect

Honestly! I don’t want to turn this into a Divorce blog because in truth, I’m experiencing a completely fulfilling lovefest with a very special man.  AND that’s a whole other subject which I will keep safe and close to my heart for now. BUT………. A friend sent me a lovely email sending me support. He expressed sympathy for the loss of my marriage, and encouragement for the beginning of my new life. This is a nice example of a friend simply putting their arm around my shoulder and accompanying me on my path. (I am lucky to have a LOT of friends like this)  Anyways, included in this email was a song about divorce.  It moves me….so I want to share it.

Focusing on the Light

Beauty in the Shadows

Again, I’m so remiss with writing.   I have mountains of words and feelings inside my brain and heart…but I haven’t allowed myself to unleash them out into the world.  It seems kind of dangerous…and also tiring. A few things you should know. Going through a divorce is fucking hard. It’s interesting. It’s enlightening. It’s painful. Literally, your insides hurt.  They hurt like someone is using your innards as one of those balls that you squeeze in the palm of your hand to relieve stress.  My heart and stomach and chest and throat feel like that stress ball…..all squeezy and beat up.  It also feels like the world is using your soul as a bouncing ball….over and over hitting the pavement.  Each new hurdle..conundrum…judgment…just another smackdown against the cold hard cement…then bouncing up again. It’s the law of gravity. You’ll never understand what it feels like to go through a divorce…until you do.  Period…….just like one never understands the intensity and heartache of being a parent or experiencing the death of a loved one…until they …